I remembered that day I dreamt of adam and this girl that my mind made up. Adam confessed something in my dream, I don't know exactly what it is but I remembered waking up crying and asking for hug. 2 days after, I learned and I found out about the truth. That the story that I know, Yung akala kong totoo, we're all make believe, they we're just plain story that they created to fool me. Ang sakit. And this time, I can't even explain how painful it is. It happened long ago, but i just can't believe that I have been laughing with those people that fooled me.
Yes, I now know everything, I have read it clearly. And all of these things went inside my brain, Ni rerecord lahat. It just transformed this conversation that I have read into a movie, and it keeps on playing inside my head. It plays even when my eyes are closed.
And though I have read everything, I still want to hear the truth from him.And the words that came out from his mouth made my world turn upside down. I don't know how to react. Ayoko kasi marinig lang sa iba lahat, I don't want to rely on the things that i have read.I want him to tell me everything. Masakit nga talagang Malaman mo lang sa iba lahat, Pero iba rin yung feeling na maririnig mo lahat sakanya, sobrang sakit. Triple. Habang umaamin sya parang ginagawa lang nila ulit yun tapos nakikita ko lahat.
It's just yesterday din na naalala ko yung dream ko. And whatever I felt on that dream, I've felt again yesterday. Kung pano ko inulit ulit sa isip ko yung panaginip ko, ganun din paulit ulit sa isip ko yung nalaman ko. Ang sakit. And I don't know when would I be able to move on. :|
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